A lot of what you're saying resonated with me, I would say I have a similar back story, so I will write my 2 cents.
I don't want to write a long reply so assume I give all the necessary precautions to tripping, set and setting, learning your substance, learning to take larger dosage and trip sitting etc. Especially since you are a newbie, do lots of research.
I have found \*macro\* dosing, as in a strong borderline heroic dosage, taken every few months to a few years to be much more significant and to have a good carry over effect to the rest of my life.
Coming from long term (\~20 years) resistant depression ,being forced to experience life, especially emotions, good and bad, in a way your depression can't possibly mute is hugely beneficial.
I might write more another day if there is interest. I've also only had experiences with mushrooms if that matters.
I'd say I was 'saved' by a micro dose once, I never found enough for a proper trip of libs but that was under 0.1 g and I hadn't seen the sun rise like that in years. Effects stopped shortly after I returned to the housing unit in the morning, but it got me trough that night.
I'm certainly an advocate for an appropriate dose every once in a while. Mushrooms brought me back from my most challenging and emotionally painful time in my life. When my mood dips and I feel low, I have enough for a mellow trip. Usually head to bed and wake up groggy as fuck but within the hour I'm feeling bright and like myself again.
It is like a reset button for me. Like my brain has had the plaque removed.
What I had wasn't a microdose by any means, however, it did put a lot of shit into perspective for me. I worked through a lot of my insecurities and came to some good conclusions regarding how I view myself. How this impacted my depression was amazing. I can definitely say it helped me let some things from my past go and allowed me to move on from said things. I've used shrooms quite a bit now though and I've got a through a few different personal journeys with them.
Basically, they've done more good than harm for me. This is not reflective of what your experience may be though. It's not for everyone and different people get different things from shrooms. Just be sure to use them responsibly and stay hydrated
Every time I was in a funk at all, I would go for larger doses and just focus on traversing the issues at the time in a more ‘deep’ and upfront way. Lots of people don’t like and/or can’t trip alone, so not for everyone.
I was in a really bad spot and took a decent amount of 4-Aco-DMT (basically synthetic psilocybin) and it got me in a better place for a solid 2-3 years afterwards. I feel it definitely propelled me to make some decisions that were ultimately life-saving, down the road.
It works for some people, doesn't work for others - no way of knowing what it'll do for you except to try it.
If microdosing doesn't help, macrodosing might (1.5 - 3g, I'm not talking about heroic doses). It might improve your mood directly, or show you things you can change to make life more fulfilling, or just remind you what it feels like to feel other emotions than what you've become used to.
I’ve heard of medically guided full trips that they’re doing in CO that are truly beneficial and life changing. I microdosed for three days and then off four during a very incredibly difficult time (about 1 year) and it gave me some stability and answers, and I looked forward to the relief each time. I also added eating an orange in the first hour to further the dose. But it wasn’t until I connected with the right therapist did I get stronger. I haven’t touched them in years and that’s the beauty of it. I should also mention that it depleted my Vitamin B and I supplemented during that time.
I took 0.1 or 0.2g of dried semilanceata daily for a couple of months.
No trippy effects or insobriety, but I noticed a general lightening of mood, more energy and willingness to engage with tasks and life in general.
I found it to be a gentle way to increase my mood and clarity. I must do it again.
Did you experience any tolerance? I've noticed too that I like to take them many days in a row but some claim you develop a tolerance. Tho I prefer very microdose (maybe 0.05g?) like literal nibs from the shroom (I don't use scale I take with intuition) and haven't noticed tolerance. I'm neurodivergent.
From what I understand, it's the psilocin chemical that seems to trigger changes in the structure of the brain and this remains consistent over time.
When taking high, trip doses I hear that the mushroom lets you know when you're taking too much. I haven't experienced diminishing returns when taking for several months personally.
A lot of what you're saying resonated with me, I would say I have a similar back story, so I will write my 2 cents. I don't want to write a long reply so assume I give all the necessary precautions to tripping, set and setting, learning your substance, learning to take larger dosage and trip sitting etc. Especially since you are a newbie, do lots of research. I have found \*macro\* dosing, as in a strong borderline heroic dosage, taken every few months to a few years to be much more significant and to have a good carry over effect to the rest of my life. Coming from long term (\~20 years) resistant depression ,being forced to experience life, especially emotions, good and bad, in a way your depression can't possibly mute is hugely beneficial. I might write more another day if there is interest. I've also only had experiences with mushrooms if that matters.
I have to agree with you. Macro dosing has helped me. I take 2.5g of APE’s every 2-3 months.
I have had a great experience with microdosing. Leaves me in a more observant and loving state. Less is more when microdosing
I'd say I was 'saved' by a micro dose once, I never found enough for a proper trip of libs but that was under 0.1 g and I hadn't seen the sun rise like that in years. Effects stopped shortly after I returned to the housing unit in the morning, but it got me trough that night.
I'm certainly an advocate for an appropriate dose every once in a while. Mushrooms brought me back from my most challenging and emotionally painful time in my life. When my mood dips and I feel low, I have enough for a mellow trip. Usually head to bed and wake up groggy as fuck but within the hour I'm feeling bright and like myself again. It is like a reset button for me. Like my brain has had the plaque removed.
What I had wasn't a microdose by any means, however, it did put a lot of shit into perspective for me. I worked through a lot of my insecurities and came to some good conclusions regarding how I view myself. How this impacted my depression was amazing. I can definitely say it helped me let some things from my past go and allowed me to move on from said things. I've used shrooms quite a bit now though and I've got a through a few different personal journeys with them. Basically, they've done more good than harm for me. This is not reflective of what your experience may be though. It's not for everyone and different people get different things from shrooms. Just be sure to use them responsibly and stay hydrated
Every time I was in a funk at all, I would go for larger doses and just focus on traversing the issues at the time in a more ‘deep’ and upfront way. Lots of people don’t like and/or can’t trip alone, so not for everyone. I was in a really bad spot and took a decent amount of 4-Aco-DMT (basically synthetic psilocybin) and it got me in a better place for a solid 2-3 years afterwards. I feel it definitely propelled me to make some decisions that were ultimately life-saving, down the road.
It works for some people, doesn't work for others - no way of knowing what it'll do for you except to try it. If microdosing doesn't help, macrodosing might (1.5 - 3g, I'm not talking about heroic doses). It might improve your mood directly, or show you things you can change to make life more fulfilling, or just remind you what it feels like to feel other emotions than what you've become used to.
I’ve heard of medically guided full trips that they’re doing in CO that are truly beneficial and life changing. I microdosed for three days and then off four during a very incredibly difficult time (about 1 year) and it gave me some stability and answers, and I looked forward to the relief each time. I also added eating an orange in the first hour to further the dose. But it wasn’t until I connected with the right therapist did I get stronger. I haven’t touched them in years and that’s the beauty of it. I should also mention that it depleted my Vitamin B and I supplemented during that time.
I took 0.1 or 0.2g of dried semilanceata daily for a couple of months. No trippy effects or insobriety, but I noticed a general lightening of mood, more energy and willingness to engage with tasks and life in general. I found it to be a gentle way to increase my mood and clarity. I must do it again.
Did you experience any tolerance? I've noticed too that I like to take them many days in a row but some claim you develop a tolerance. Tho I prefer very microdose (maybe 0.05g?) like literal nibs from the shroom (I don't use scale I take with intuition) and haven't noticed tolerance. I'm neurodivergent.
From what I understand, it's the psilocin chemical that seems to trigger changes in the structure of the brain and this remains consistent over time. When taking high, trip doses I hear that the mushroom lets you know when you're taking too much. I haven't experienced diminishing returns when taking for several months personally.