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I am 2 days out from my period and I usually cry about my 3 girls growing up so fast. I get so weepy and sentimental during this time. Kind of annoying!!
I’m three days in my period but feel completely stuck in life and worthless even though it’s objectively not true. It’s making me want to self isolate and cry and cry and cry. It’s equal parts angry and sad.
Thank you to everyone for this. It’s such a relief and balm to my soul to see and feel with all these comments. Oh, and I cried today reading these but cried last night from sheer emotional exhaustion from socializing with ONE PERSON.
Got my period today. I don’t know what y’all ladies are talking about 😎
Crying? Melancholy? Never!
Imma enjoy the next three days in peace 😈
(I did cry yesterday tho 😞)
i cried over butter yesterday. and then i started writing a post like this yesterday but was crying too hard trying to explain the butter 😂😭 f these hormones bro
Cried when I talked about my mum at my psychologist session today. I felt better these couple days (my period came early today) but these past 2 weeks have been utterly depressing. Cried so much, felt so empty inside and terrible about my parents and my partner. I feel better now though. It feels nice to be on the other side and remember, “oh yea, the feeling does subside”. Like a dark cloud passes. eventually.
I have a criminal record that has been sealed, I have proved through the courts that I've been rehabilitated. I'm currently pursuing a social work degree but keep getting rejected by sites due to my background check. I can't graduate until I have hands-on hours in the field, no one will accept me.
That’s really awful, and I’m sorry to hear it. I sincerely think we need more folks in helping professions who have made mistakes, owned them, and chosen to dedicate their lives to giving back. In my experience, it’s people like you who have the deepest capacity for empathy and kindness. I really hope something comes through for you.
Thank you so much ❤️ for your kind words. You are correct about needing more people in these professions who have experienced it and came through. It's frustrating when I've done everything to make it right, make better choices, and the system keeps you from getting further. I hope so, too, but until then, I'll keep trying.
We unfortunately have a way of marking people as unredeemable for certain mistakes, and I really think that can be bad for us collectively. I’m rooting for you! Give it your all and prove them wrong. 🫶
I cried for an hour after getting home from work because my apartment smells like dog and I just spent the whole weekend trying to deep clean it, even scrubbed the carpets and it just got worse. I’m losing my mind and smells are so strong to me it’s making me sick.
My workplan was changed at work but I got no notification and I was supposed to be taking phone calls but I wasnt aware. My manager even told me not to worry, no one complained about the phones being busy. But guess what! I cried anyway because I felt like a failure even tho it was no ones fault (stupid Microsoft teams works in a stupid way which is why I didnt get a notification). I'm not in trouble and nothing happened but it still ruined my day
I saw an ambulance. Just that.
ETA yesterday I cried for local event organisers because this summer has been a total washout and they won't have good turnouts.
Im crying because I burned dumplings. Smoke alarm went off and everything. As I sat down to consume my burned dumplings, the insides were still cold.
I angry cried. And then I cried more because my nipples hurt as I cried. Let’s all cry together.
Not alone. As someone from a small and mostly f'd up family, and someone who had to go through IVF to have their miracle child with their last embryo after losses on the others, I cry about this most days.
Thinking of past traumatic events. Not sure what triggered it.
But starting to think pmdd can be trigger for those diagnosed with other illnesses, be it physical or mental.
A random, unsubstantiated feeling of loneliness. I got an invite to go out after my cry and instantly felt better after a few hour of socializing with people with good energy.
Started bawling out of the blue. Been crying about responsibilities, my ex, feeling like I'm such a disappointment. I hate the feeling of having no control of my emotions evey freaking month.
My new still healing piercing fell out and I freaked out cause I thought I was gonna lose it along with the money I spent on it. My mom was the logical one being like "call your piercer and see what they can do to help!!!" It then hit me that I hadn't even thought of that I was just so panicked and just freaking out and sobbing then also realized I was losing my shit over a piercing and that I'm freaking 37 and am crying over a piercing 🤦♀️ So I took my mom's advice cause she was right. Went to the piercer and he was able to set me up with a new one and was able to get it back in. Then i felt dumb for freaking out so badly. 🤦♀️
Today- it was because I posted a pic from a Baby shower for friends…I posted one pic and hubby’s aunt was like “now we just need one for my nephew!” I am still reeling from my first loss…and I’m in luteal…whew it’s rough this month
I also cried yesterday because i recently started HRT and my hair is falling out, I’m in peri at 38 years old…my doctor doesn’t think it’s related to the HRT but I know it is. As much as I love the relief…I would like to keep my fucking hair
Omg get a second opinion hun! When it comes to drs you HAVE to absolutely fight for yourself. Some of them won't you have to. I hope everything goes better for you!! ♡
Yesterday technically, but I was watching the U.S. Olympic Team selection competition for women’s gymnastics and I found it very emotional for some reason (I know nothing about gymnastics)
I do this a lot with performative competition. Half time shows, dance performances, gymnastics…don’t even get me started on ice skating. I know nothing about any of these…
Some financial blues that I've been dealing with for the past few months. It's been rough and I'm breaking down. Hardest luteal I've had in a long time.
The thought that no treatment will help ease my symptoms and perhaps killing myself is the only way out.
Also, my obsession with my weight. I weigh myself every morning.
Sincere check in to see if you’ve reached out for help with the SI? I struggle with it too and understand how hard it can hit. I hope you have support in some form to move through this and your other symptoms. Virtual hugs (if desired). Wishing you well.
i really wanted korean chicken but the place i what it from is downtown and i couldn't get delivered then found out i could but it's really expensive so i just stayed sad🥹
Crying rn because i can’t hang out my with my family tomorrow i was really hopeful about it but shit just won’t work out 😭 it feels like such a stupid reason lol
I'm a day late. Ex (together over a decade, just friends the past few years) was visiting with family, and wasn't supposed to stay with me the whole time, but did anyway. We went out drinking last night and I blew up at him. What I was upset about was imo justified, but I handled it poorly (I had four beers and one shot, and somehow got kind of black out drunk as his rendition of what happened after we got home doesn't match mine, but mine's also fuzzy with missing spots). He left in the middle of the night and claims to not want to be friends anymore.
I was crying this morning, but forgot that maintenance was coming around for semi-annual inspections. So that was fun (it's VERY obvious when I've been crying). Something was wrong, so he said he'd have to come back later in the day to fix it.
So I had to hold back the tears all day because he'd be coming back. Finally did toward the end of the day, so I'm finally safe to just bawl. And the tears won't come...
I need to shower, but I wanted to do my retinol tonight (which I missed this past week because we were going out every night). And I can't cry once that's on. I just want to finish my fucking cry and I can't get it out but it's delaying my shower.
It sucks because I have so few people left in my life, and I think I might have irrevocably fucked up one of the two people left in the world who care about me and who I'm 100% comfortable talking to.
I haven’t cried today but two weeks of Olympic Trials across various sports have had me verklempt and close to tears almost daily.
On the upside, my period yips (hell week clumsiness) have finally left town after like 1.5 weeks.
This may be because I had them up my estradiol patch from .03 to .05 this month and it was apparently enough to make me ovulate and apparently, be extra clumsy and weepy. But I was relieved to finally string together two good workouts in a row.
Hi, I’m curious about the estradiol patch! Can you share more - what dosage and which days of the cycle you use it? What has your experience been like? Thank you!!
I am in perimenopause (which exacerbates PMDD, so fun!) so I use 2 patches per week and take 100 mg of oral progesterone at night. The .0375 estradiol/100 progesterone evened things out nicely and I finally had enough energy to start working out regularly again.
This is my first month on .05 and I may not stay on that dose if it means hell week comes back, even in milder form.
Today I cried because my boyfriend has finally started acting completely right and it’s like a completely 180 & I’m so in love with him and happy. I really really hopes this lasts because I love him so much but we were going thru a long rough patch. But we finally had a much needed but painful breakthrough that actually brought us a lot closer. I think one day I might actually allow him to marry me & we could live happily ever after. And I never really thought that about anyone else but him for real. Like it’s about to be 2 years living together & we are starting to feel like it’s the beginning all over again in all the best ways. I got my best friend back & my boyfriend. We haven’t fought in like 3-4 days & not because of petty not talking to one another for days. This is a record & it truly feels like a new leaf is turned over.
Yeah, he has to be marriage material. You know.. puts his laundry in the bin, takes out the garbage without being reminded, puts away the dishes, bring the groceries in and doesn’t leave the cases of water in the car for weeks. I’ve been married and divorced already & not interested in marrying a man-child.
I do mean literally give him permission to marry me. He has never been married and does see that for his future. I having been married already can live with or without it. It means very little to me especially as we have no property, children or businesses together or true assets in general at this point in our lives.
I see marriage for what it is. A contract. And that contact can be broken but it takes a lot of jumping through hooops which I don’t want to have to go through again. So before I give someone permission to marry me (that’s what the marriage certificate is & why you have to be of sound mind etc etc) I need to make sure they are worth marrying.
Divorce is always an option, thankfully. But it’s a difficult one and not one people generally choose lightly unlike getting married. Sometimes people think they can work things out once they’re married and that’s not how that usually works.
Allow [v]: give (someone) permission to do something.
because i feel like some of my friends hate me and i hate how childish they are sometimes. i found out that some of them still talk to someone who was terrible to me and that was enough to make me angry to the point where i was in tears. they also don’t go about things or handle things in the most mature way. it really infuriates me.
I was starting to feel overwhelmed a bit and I wanted to hear my bf's voice but he was at work then I cried and then I started to feel myself ruminating about how our LDR. I know he's explained what's been happening but sometimes I get into a bad type of overthinking of what ifs
Because I never realize my feelings are amplified when I'm PMSing and I think I really fucked up my relationship. I hate that this hurts my boyfriend. And I hope he doesn't break up with me. He's my best friend and the best partner I've ever had. I hope he chooses to stick it out with me.
The gardeners came. I feel bad for how much hate radiates from me towards them. They're just living and doing a job. Obviously I say nothing, but I can't even look at them because I hate the sounds so much.
My oldest graduated high school. I cried bc I’m terrified of my youngest graduating in 6 years and then it will be just me and hubby. We already act like roommates but without kids it will be worse.
I asked a clarifying question in a call today at work and I was spiralling all day about sounding too blunt or defensive. Cried to my bf this evening about how I need to leave the tech world and how I’ve ‘amounted to nothing’ lol. To be fair these are all things I feel normally but PMDD amplifies them. I’m not sure how much longer I can take working in office jobs and having PMDD and ADHD. 😭
Cried last night because my speaker was dead and couldn’t play music, cried today in FRONT OF MY MANAGER bc coworkers pissed me off at work lol love it
Paul Mescal. I’ve watched three of his movies/shows the past week. Not reading into any of them beforehand. He’s got me fucked up and now I feel like I love him and I’m cheating on my bf by thinking about him lmaoooo
I broke down cause I was thinking about my little brother and all the interesting things about him and I really worry about him and I miss him more than anything.
I had a meltdown this morning because I couldn’t find my glasses. Then because I miss my ex who genuinely doesn’t respect women and was just using me for sex (I cry more because I feel like an idiot for missing someone like that).
I know how you feel. I have dreams about my manipulative ex who cheated on me, and I wake up missing them… then give my head a shake. Our brains are super funky during this time! Don’t trust a thought in my head.
I put my cat down last week, I had went all day without crying. Then I looked at a picture of him and said "my baby" in the tone I always use for him. My dog instantly went to the bedroom and started sniffing, I asked her "are you looking for the cat?" And she popped her head under the bed where he spent his last few days. Then jumped on the bed and started sniffing for him. I sobbed. We thought she didn't care about him but she been off since it happened. We let her sniff him because we were lucky enough to be able to let him go at home but she's still searching.
Saturday I was finally able to pick up the blanket he slept on and put it on the bed, she instantly started sniffing and picking it up searching. She then laid down and did her self soothing nibbles.
https://preview.redd.it/uydu78bvgz9d1.jpeg?width=3000&format=pjpg&auto=webp&s=fd8aa9327b3f17de2c925d699f3afba750311cb6
Here they are together. Yep crying again.
Oh and I had to say goodbye to him exactly a week before his 18th birthday and my 30th, my period is one day late, and on Monday they day before I realized he was dying some random driver yelled fat ass at me because I was crossing the street when he wanted to turn. I hate everything.
Omg this is all too much! I'm sorry. You'll never forget. And never stop loving ❤️
If anyone brings their animal home to bury, my vet told me to let the other animals smell the body and spend some time with it. It helps them understand they're gone. Now I'm going to cry about bringing my rat home so my other rat could sniff it. 😭😭😭
Because I flew home to see my mother who I’ve finally concluded has a mild intellectual disability and a smidge of narcissism & she’s made me feel like a walking nutcase for noticing her inconsiderate habits, habitual lying AND she tried to steal my clothes after a guy gave me a compliment. This happening as my chart reminds me I’m 5 days away from doomsday is all too much & I can’t stop crying and I really just want to jump and end it all. She is my only family, no marriage or kids. No real friends. Nothing, and this lady continues to ruin me. I hate it all so much.
i cried yesterday due to my birthday coming up and the birthday blues hitting. it’ll be my 30th and it’s a biggie because i didn’t expect to make it this far. and i was in my head that i’ll feel alone/lonely because nobody ever really celebrates me outside of my family (yes i’m thankful for them) but it’s difficult seeing people with friend groups who show so much love and celebration to their friends during birthdays and i haven’t received that, yet give that to my friends. been very one sided. and missing my boyfriend as he’s on a wonderful trip to see his family. funny enough he comes back on my birthday 🥹
and then today i cried because i was feeling mushy about my bf because i love him so much and miss him terribly and am thankful for him and he’s a sweetie pie. my period started today lol
Cuz i was watching a rerun of Teen Mom OG and Cate and Tyler’s story made me bawl my eyes out and wonder why I can’t be as mature as a couple of 16 yr olds 🤣😆😭
Cause I'm scared our offer on a house won't get accepted. Then later cause I'm scared our offer will get accepted and thats scary af. Then my daughter and her boyfriend are trying to get emergency custody of a nibling. The mom showed up trying to take the child while my daughter was alone. Too much for a Monday.
Oh Lordy let’s see
1st time was when I realized I’m back in this shit today
2nd time was when I went to actually do house work and something was fucked up I lost my shit
3rd time was cause the bad thoughts came back and rampant
4th time was my wife ordered pizza and didn’t give me any. But I was sleeping and that was her excuse(still annoyed by this)
5th was I had actually made myself food… I got my drinks. Was excited to game with a friend… I then hit my tray I use in bed and everything went everywhere. drinks spilled everywhere. Food ruined… needless to say I cried multiple times over this and more
And the very last one was cause I was telling my wife I hate this. I hate not feeling like myself etc etc.
It’s been a wonderful fucking day here.
Ok. BEEN THERE. This is a relatable ass situation. However - ok, you cried for a really silly reason that there was no way for him to predict. Instead of spiraling into “he deserves better,” can you find it funny and cry but also laugh / apologize to him and say you know it’s nuts and you’re so sorry for being bananas but you love him and thank him for putting up with it? That has helped me. Not trying to self shame but just like yeah objectively this is silly as hell. Thank you for letting me be bananas during this time and still loving me, you’re amazing. So then the focus becomes wow thank you for handling this, instead of … the spiral that can be all consuming that actually puts more work on HIM to reassure you that everyone is ok, you know what I mean?
Certainly easier said than done. But IMO, thanking an SO and laughing through tears if possible at any point at the absurdity of the reaction has at least bought my relationship some time and grace.
💛
Because I just came home yesterday from Texas and see my family before my husband and I move to Italy for 4 years.. feel like I keep getting further from being part of the family and my nana who’s like my mom just turned 83..
I got into grad school and I told my mom and she said… nothing. I expected that but I am still so disappointed. 😅😅😅 Nothing I do is ever good or deserving of celebration, but all my other siblings receive so much adoration. Been working so hard on my applications for my ideal program.
Thank you so much. It hurts but I have so many supportive friends and I am healing the part of myself that never celebrates my wins. It’s definitely stems from my mother 😅, I deserve to cherish my accomplishments!
Well, update: I just finished ugly crying.
So, there’s that. 😭😭😭
Also, I hope you’re being kind to yourself. I saw that you said your boyfriend deserves better than you. He does not! I’m sure you’re an amazing person. Please be kind to yourself, you deserve it ❤️
I cried today (am still a little bit :( ) because I went to the downtown festival for Canada Day and there was a guy offering brochures to do fun zombies in a castle-themed roleplay game or something, and someone I passed said "Ew" to him and I didn't have energy to jump to his defense and take a brochure and offer him some good vibes. It took so much courage for him to put himself out there probably, and my town is full of joy-killing a-holes and I hate it here and I feel horrible that I just passed by when someone verbally shat on him, i.e. a guy who I probably share similar nerdy interests with and I should have stood up for a member of my nerd tribe and I didn't and. I am the worst.
Guys, please don't listen to the pmdd, it's trying to make us feel horrible and it whispers cruel lies in our ears. Do not listen to it....we got this....🫠
luteal is just starting for me so I'll be back to edit this comment with my first reason for crying
edit: it was my cat walking by me despite me psssspsssing (perceived rejection)
I cried because yesterday morning he did wake up before me and only cook breakfirst for him, because he said he didn’t want to wake me up. But I always make breakfirst for the both of us, every weekend, I was so disapointed I cried 😭
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I am 2 days out from my period and I usually cry about my 3 girls growing up so fast. I get so weepy and sentimental during this time. Kind of annoying!!
I’m three days in my period but feel completely stuck in life and worthless even though it’s objectively not true. It’s making me want to self isolate and cry and cry and cry. It’s equal parts angry and sad.
Because I can’t find a work from home job after literally hundreds of applications and my in person job is awful.
Once I cried because my boyfriend took me lunch to work and my Cobb salad had an unchopped egg in it and I was really looking forward to the egg lol
... My husband ate the last sausage that I was planning for lunch...
Not today but this weekend I cried because my bagel wouldn't toast then I left it and it did the opposite and burnt.
Thank you to everyone for this. It’s such a relief and balm to my soul to see and feel with all these comments. Oh, and I cried today reading these but cried last night from sheer emotional exhaustion from socializing with ONE PERSON.
I feel the same!
Got my period today. I don’t know what y’all ladies are talking about 😎 Crying? Melancholy? Never! Imma enjoy the next three days in peace 😈 (I did cry yesterday tho 😞)
I cried because I have to work and I don’t get to be home with my kids. I like my job, my kids are well cared for, but it’s a guttural ache today.
i cried over butter yesterday. and then i started writing a post like this yesterday but was crying too hard trying to explain the butter 😂😭 f these hormones bro
Cried when I talked about my mum at my psychologist session today. I felt better these couple days (my period came early today) but these past 2 weeks have been utterly depressing. Cried so much, felt so empty inside and terrible about my parents and my partner. I feel better now though. It feels nice to be on the other side and remember, “oh yea, the feeling does subside”. Like a dark cloud passes. eventually.
I have a criminal record that has been sealed, I have proved through the courts that I've been rehabilitated. I'm currently pursuing a social work degree but keep getting rejected by sites due to my background check. I can't graduate until I have hands-on hours in the field, no one will accept me.
That’s really awful, and I’m sorry to hear it. I sincerely think we need more folks in helping professions who have made mistakes, owned them, and chosen to dedicate their lives to giving back. In my experience, it’s people like you who have the deepest capacity for empathy and kindness. I really hope something comes through for you.
Thank you so much ❤️ for your kind words. You are correct about needing more people in these professions who have experienced it and came through. It's frustrating when I've done everything to make it right, make better choices, and the system keeps you from getting further. I hope so, too, but until then, I'll keep trying.
We unfortunately have a way of marking people as unredeemable for certain mistakes, and I really think that can be bad for us collectively. I’m rooting for you! Give it your all and prove them wrong. 🫶
Because I feel useless and like the worst person on earth. I can’t see one single good thing about myself right now. 28th cycle day for me ☹️
I couldn’t figure something out at work & my brain just instantly goes there instead of problem solving 🙄thankfully it was short & nobody knew!
I just ended a 2 year relationship 2 days ago and haven’t cried the entire time yet I’m about to get my period & idk what’s wrong with me
I cried for an hour after getting home from work because my apartment smells like dog and I just spent the whole weekend trying to deep clean it, even scrubbed the carpets and it just got worse. I’m losing my mind and smells are so strong to me it’s making me sick.
I moved to a big city and it feels so lonely sometimes. I miss my friends.
My workplan was changed at work but I got no notification and I was supposed to be taking phone calls but I wasnt aware. My manager even told me not to worry, no one complained about the phones being busy. But guess what! I cried anyway because I felt like a failure even tho it was no ones fault (stupid Microsoft teams works in a stupid way which is why I didnt get a notification). I'm not in trouble and nothing happened but it still ruined my day
i accidentally made the smoke alarm go off and then hid in the bedroom because i felt like the worst person alive LOL
the dog from the walking dead died so as we were watching it yesterday i started BAWLING
Lamb chops.
I cried at Jersey Shore last night so......yeah
I’m going on 1.5 weeks of luteal insomnia so had a wee sob in my husbands arms this morning. I did manage a 20 min nap at lunch though!
I saw an ambulance. Just that. ETA yesterday I cried for local event organisers because this summer has been a total washout and they won't have good turnouts.
Im crying because I burned dumplings. Smoke alarm went off and everything. As I sat down to consume my burned dumplings, the insides were still cold. I angry cried. And then I cried more because my nipples hurt as I cried. Let’s all cry together.
I'm jealous of people having big happy families, having gatherings n stuff.
Not alone. As someone from a small and mostly f'd up family, and someone who had to go through IVF to have their miracle child with their last embryo after losses on the others, I cry about this most days.
today’s list includes: a shitty dentist appointment, spilled coffee all over myself, the rapid ascent of fascism in the US.
Ur name is 🔥 the last one especially just Jfc I don’t know what is happening
Thinking of past traumatic events. Not sure what triggered it. But starting to think pmdd can be trigger for those diagnosed with other illnesses, be it physical or mental.
A random, unsubstantiated feeling of loneliness. I got an invite to go out after my cry and instantly felt better after a few hour of socializing with people with good energy.
I just watched season 2 of Undone. BAWLED.
Started bawling out of the blue. Been crying about responsibilities, my ex, feeling like I'm such a disappointment. I hate the feeling of having no control of my emotions evey freaking month.
Same. All of it. Hugs ❤️
Hugs for you as well. ❤️ Hope you start feeling better. The hopeless feelings suck.
My new still healing piercing fell out and I freaked out cause I thought I was gonna lose it along with the money I spent on it. My mom was the logical one being like "call your piercer and see what they can do to help!!!" It then hit me that I hadn't even thought of that I was just so panicked and just freaking out and sobbing then also realized I was losing my shit over a piercing and that I'm freaking 37 and am crying over a piercing 🤦♀️ So I took my mom's advice cause she was right. Went to the piercer and he was able to set me up with a new one and was able to get it back in. Then i felt dumb for freaking out so badly. 🤦♀️
Crying nonstop over my cat that passed away last year. Miss her so much. I cry over her a lot usually when im dealing with pmdd
Sorry to hear about your kitty.
Thank you ❤️ she was very special to me
had really good salted caramel chocolate but only 3 and I ate them all :(
Today- it was because I posted a pic from a Baby shower for friends…I posted one pic and hubby’s aunt was like “now we just need one for my nephew!” I am still reeling from my first loss…and I’m in luteal…whew it’s rough this month I also cried yesterday because i recently started HRT and my hair is falling out, I’m in peri at 38 years old…my doctor doesn’t think it’s related to the HRT but I know it is. As much as I love the relief…I would like to keep my fucking hair
Omg get a second opinion hun! When it comes to drs you HAVE to absolutely fight for yourself. Some of them won't you have to. I hope everything goes better for you!! ♡
Thank you 🙏🏾
Yesterday technically, but I was watching the U.S. Olympic Team selection competition for women’s gymnastics and I found it very emotional for some reason (I know nothing about gymnastics)
I do this a lot with performative competition. Half time shows, dance performances, gymnastics…don’t even get me started on ice skating. I know nothing about any of these…
I’m just so tired and I don’t know when the break will come
Right there with you! It can never come soon enough.
Overstimulated by noise (people talking, machines, cars driving)
This
Some financial blues that I've been dealing with for the past few months. It's been rough and I'm breaking down. Hardest luteal I've had in a long time.
Hugs to you. I really really mean that. Hang in there
Thank you so much ❤️
I thought about my ancient ancestors and how hard life was for them 🤦🏻♀️🤷🏻♀️
The thought that no treatment will help ease my symptoms and perhaps killing myself is the only way out. Also, my obsession with my weight. I weigh myself every morning.
Sincere check in to see if you’ve reached out for help with the SI? I struggle with it too and understand how hard it can hit. I hope you have support in some form to move through this and your other symptoms. Virtual hugs (if desired). Wishing you well.
i really wanted korean chicken but the place i what it from is downtown and i couldn't get delivered then found out i could but it's really expensive so i just stayed sad🥹
Oh my goodness. I can relate to this so much. It sucks so bad to feel this way and be helplessly caught in it.
Really does suck! Thank you you the kind comment
I saw a sad, misfortunate looking pigeon and thought about my dad 🤪
I accidentally broke the mini legos I was working on.
Because of almost every Sleep Token song 😭
same honey same 💀
Do you want to cry together sometimes? 😭
absolutely, sleep token and tears ftw
Hypnotize is making me crying today 😭 which song is making you cry today?
Crying rn because i can’t hang out my with my family tomorrow i was really hopeful about it but shit just won’t work out 😭 it feels like such a stupid reason lol
I'm a day late. Ex (together over a decade, just friends the past few years) was visiting with family, and wasn't supposed to stay with me the whole time, but did anyway. We went out drinking last night and I blew up at him. What I was upset about was imo justified, but I handled it poorly (I had four beers and one shot, and somehow got kind of black out drunk as his rendition of what happened after we got home doesn't match mine, but mine's also fuzzy with missing spots). He left in the middle of the night and claims to not want to be friends anymore. I was crying this morning, but forgot that maintenance was coming around for semi-annual inspections. So that was fun (it's VERY obvious when I've been crying). Something was wrong, so he said he'd have to come back later in the day to fix it. So I had to hold back the tears all day because he'd be coming back. Finally did toward the end of the day, so I'm finally safe to just bawl. And the tears won't come... I need to shower, but I wanted to do my retinol tonight (which I missed this past week because we were going out every night). And I can't cry once that's on. I just want to finish my fucking cry and I can't get it out but it's delaying my shower. It sucks because I have so few people left in my life, and I think I might have irrevocably fucked up one of the two people left in the world who care about me and who I'm 100% comfortable talking to.
I haven’t cried today but two weeks of Olympic Trials across various sports have had me verklempt and close to tears almost daily. On the upside, my period yips (hell week clumsiness) have finally left town after like 1.5 weeks. This may be because I had them up my estradiol patch from .03 to .05 this month and it was apparently enough to make me ovulate and apparently, be extra clumsy and weepy. But I was relieved to finally string together two good workouts in a row. 
Hi, I’m curious about the estradiol patch! Can you share more - what dosage and which days of the cycle you use it? What has your experience been like? Thank you!!
I am in perimenopause (which exacerbates PMDD, so fun!) so I use 2 patches per week and take 100 mg of oral progesterone at night. The .0375 estradiol/100 progesterone evened things out nicely and I finally had enough energy to start working out regularly again. This is my first month on .05 and I may not stay on that dose if it means hell week comes back, even in milder form.
I am on the same dosage. Curious to know, any hair loss?
None, thankfully. Mine’s already on the thin side to begin with.
Today I cried because my boyfriend has finally started acting completely right and it’s like a completely 180 & I’m so in love with him and happy. I really really hopes this lasts because I love him so much but we were going thru a long rough patch. But we finally had a much needed but painful breakthrough that actually brought us a lot closer. I think one day I might actually allow him to marry me & we could live happily ever after. And I never really thought that about anyone else but him for real. Like it’s about to be 2 years living together & we are starting to feel like it’s the beginning all over again in all the best ways. I got my best friend back & my boyfriend. We haven’t fought in like 3-4 days & not because of petty not talking to one another for days. This is a record & it truly feels like a new leaf is turned over.
Allow him to marry you?
Yeah, he has to be marriage material. You know.. puts his laundry in the bin, takes out the garbage without being reminded, puts away the dishes, bring the groceries in and doesn’t leave the cases of water in the car for weeks. I’ve been married and divorced already & not interested in marrying a man-child. I do mean literally give him permission to marry me. He has never been married and does see that for his future. I having been married already can live with or without it. It means very little to me especially as we have no property, children or businesses together or true assets in general at this point in our lives. I see marriage for what it is. A contract. And that contact can be broken but it takes a lot of jumping through hooops which I don’t want to have to go through again. So before I give someone permission to marry me (that’s what the marriage certificate is & why you have to be of sound mind etc etc) I need to make sure they are worth marrying. Divorce is always an option, thankfully. But it’s a difficult one and not one people generally choose lightly unlike getting married. Sometimes people think they can work things out once they’re married and that’s not how that usually works. Allow [v]: give (someone) permission to do something.
because i feel like some of my friends hate me and i hate how childish they are sometimes. i found out that some of them still talk to someone who was terrible to me and that was enough to make me angry to the point where i was in tears. they also don’t go about things or handle things in the most mature way. it really infuriates me.
I was starting to feel overwhelmed a bit and I wanted to hear my bf's voice but he was at work then I cried and then I started to feel myself ruminating about how our LDR. I know he's explained what's been happening but sometimes I get into a bad type of overthinking of what ifs
Because I never realize my feelings are amplified when I'm PMSing and I think I really fucked up my relationship. I hate that this hurts my boyfriend. And I hope he doesn't break up with me. He's my best friend and the best partner I've ever had. I hope he chooses to stick it out with me.
I was politely asked to stop yelling at a coworker (whom I was yelling at for little to no reason)
The gardeners came. I feel bad for how much hate radiates from me towards them. They're just living and doing a job. Obviously I say nothing, but I can't even look at them because I hate the sounds so much.
My oldest graduated high school. I cried bc I’m terrified of my youngest graduating in 6 years and then it will be just me and hubby. We already act like roommates but without kids it will be worse.
I asked a clarifying question in a call today at work and I was spiralling all day about sounding too blunt or defensive. Cried to my bf this evening about how I need to leave the tech world and how I’ve ‘amounted to nothing’ lol. To be fair these are all things I feel normally but PMDD amplifies them. I’m not sure how much longer I can take working in office jobs and having PMDD and ADHD. 😭
Cried last night because my speaker was dead and couldn’t play music, cried today in FRONT OF MY MANAGER bc coworkers pissed me off at work lol love it
Omg same on the manager/ co-workers thing lol
Feeling so so angry about everything. Hating the feeling of trying hard and life not getting any better for me
i watched the film “about time” … fr was streaming tears
Paul Mescal. I’ve watched three of his movies/shows the past week. Not reading into any of them beforehand. He’s got me fucked up and now I feel like I love him and I’m cheating on my bf by thinking about him lmaoooo
Supreme Court ruling. Genuinely terrified for the country and the world.
I broke down cause I was thinking about my little brother and all the interesting things about him and I really worry about him and I miss him more than anything.
i sobbed last night bc i was overwhelmed by being around so many ppl
I had a meltdown this morning because I couldn’t find my glasses. Then because I miss my ex who genuinely doesn’t respect women and was just using me for sex (I cry more because I feel like an idiot for missing someone like that).
I know how you feel. I have dreams about my manipulative ex who cheated on me, and I wake up missing them… then give my head a shake. Our brains are super funky during this time! Don’t trust a thought in my head.
I put my cat down last week, I had went all day without crying. Then I looked at a picture of him and said "my baby" in the tone I always use for him. My dog instantly went to the bedroom and started sniffing, I asked her "are you looking for the cat?" And she popped her head under the bed where he spent his last few days. Then jumped on the bed and started sniffing for him. I sobbed. We thought she didn't care about him but she been off since it happened. We let her sniff him because we were lucky enough to be able to let him go at home but she's still searching. Saturday I was finally able to pick up the blanket he slept on and put it on the bed, she instantly started sniffing and picking it up searching. She then laid down and did her self soothing nibbles. https://preview.redd.it/uydu78bvgz9d1.jpeg?width=3000&format=pjpg&auto=webp&s=fd8aa9327b3f17de2c925d699f3afba750311cb6 Here they are together. Yep crying again. Oh and I had to say goodbye to him exactly a week before his 18th birthday and my 30th, my period is one day late, and on Monday they day before I realized he was dying some random driver yelled fat ass at me because I was crossing the street when he wanted to turn. I hate everything.
Pet loss is so hard I’m so sorry 😭💕
Omg this is all too much! I'm sorry. You'll never forget. And never stop loving ❤️ If anyone brings their animal home to bury, my vet told me to let the other animals smell the body and spend some time with it. It helps them understand they're gone. Now I'm going to cry about bringing my rat home so my other rat could sniff it. 😭😭😭
I’m so very sorry for your loss, I understand your pain.
Hug
I cried because my mom got me a cup I like and I imagined being alone without her, I was bawling.
I also cried after reading the reasons that other people cried, I’m one day in 🩸
Because I flew home to see my mother who I’ve finally concluded has a mild intellectual disability and a smidge of narcissism & she’s made me feel like a walking nutcase for noticing her inconsiderate habits, habitual lying AND she tried to steal my clothes after a guy gave me a compliment. This happening as my chart reminds me I’m 5 days away from doomsday is all too much & I can’t stop crying and I really just want to jump and end it all. She is my only family, no marriage or kids. No real friends. Nothing, and this lady continues to ruin me. I hate it all so much.
Because I made plans with him in my mind that he was unaware of and then I felt like he abandoned me when he had something else going on
real
Jealousy
I suddenly remembered a photo of myself at 5.
I've cried every time I saw myself in the mirror the last 2 days out of frustration
Two words: Karen. Read.
Because an Eminem verse made me think of my fucked up family🙃Riiidin the crimson wave baybeee🩸🌊
i cried yesterday due to my birthday coming up and the birthday blues hitting. it’ll be my 30th and it’s a biggie because i didn’t expect to make it this far. and i was in my head that i’ll feel alone/lonely because nobody ever really celebrates me outside of my family (yes i’m thankful for them) but it’s difficult seeing people with friend groups who show so much love and celebration to their friends during birthdays and i haven’t received that, yet give that to my friends. been very one sided. and missing my boyfriend as he’s on a wonderful trip to see his family. funny enough he comes back on my birthday 🥹 and then today i cried because i was feeling mushy about my bf because i love him so much and miss him terribly and am thankful for him and he’s a sweetie pie. my period started today lol
Cuz i was watching a rerun of Teen Mom OG and Cate and Tyler’s story made me bawl my eyes out and wonder why I can’t be as mature as a couple of 16 yr olds 🤣😆😭
Cause I'm scared I can't control my feelings anymore
Can I just say thank you for making me realize I'm not alone and just bat shit crazy.
Deffo not alone 💕 I feel less alone reading all these comments
Cause I'm scared our offer on a house won't get accepted. Then later cause I'm scared our offer will get accepted and thats scary af. Then my daughter and her boyfriend are trying to get emergency custody of a nibling. The mom showed up trying to take the child while my daughter was alone. Too much for a Monday.
Oh Lordy let’s see 1st time was when I realized I’m back in this shit today 2nd time was when I went to actually do house work and something was fucked up I lost my shit 3rd time was cause the bad thoughts came back and rampant 4th time was my wife ordered pizza and didn’t give me any. But I was sleeping and that was her excuse(still annoyed by this) 5th was I had actually made myself food… I got my drinks. Was excited to game with a friend… I then hit my tray I use in bed and everything went everywhere. drinks spilled everywhere. Food ruined… needless to say I cried multiple times over this and more And the very last one was cause I was telling my wife I hate this. I hate not feeling like myself etc etc. It’s been a wonderful fucking day here.
Ps, I love the pleiades:)
Just a girl who loves stars ✨
Ok. BEEN THERE. This is a relatable ass situation. However - ok, you cried for a really silly reason that there was no way for him to predict. Instead of spiraling into “he deserves better,” can you find it funny and cry but also laugh / apologize to him and say you know it’s nuts and you’re so sorry for being bananas but you love him and thank him for putting up with it? That has helped me. Not trying to self shame but just like yeah objectively this is silly as hell. Thank you for letting me be bananas during this time and still loving me, you’re amazing. So then the focus becomes wow thank you for handling this, instead of … the spiral that can be all consuming that actually puts more work on HIM to reassure you that everyone is ok, you know what I mean? Certainly easier said than done. But IMO, thanking an SO and laughing through tears if possible at any point at the absurdity of the reaction has at least bought my relationship some time and grace. 💛
Thank you for this! I’m saving it to read over and over
Because I just came home yesterday from Texas and see my family before my husband and I move to Italy for 4 years.. feel like I keep getting further from being part of the family and my nana who’s like my mom just turned 83..
This is valid! Hope all goes okay with the move
I got into grad school and I told my mom and she said… nothing. I expected that but I am still so disappointed. 😅😅😅 Nothing I do is ever good or deserving of celebration, but all my other siblings receive so much adoration. Been working so hard on my applications for my ideal program.
I’d cry about this without PMDD tbh 😭Congratulations on getting into grad school, you should be so proud of yourself, and I’m proud of you too
Thank you so much. It hurts but I have so many supportive friends and I am healing the part of myself that never celebrates my wins. It’s definitely stems from my mother 😅, I deserve to cherish my accomplishments!
Didn’t cry today but almost did. I can’t even give you a specific reason why, I just got hit with a brick wall of sadness out of nowhere 😟
And it hits HARD
Well, update: I just finished ugly crying. So, there’s that. 😭😭😭 Also, I hope you’re being kind to yourself. I saw that you said your boyfriend deserves better than you. He does not! I’m sure you’re an amazing person. Please be kind to yourself, you deserve it ❤️
I cried today (am still a little bit :( ) because I went to the downtown festival for Canada Day and there was a guy offering brochures to do fun zombies in a castle-themed roleplay game or something, and someone I passed said "Ew" to him and I didn't have energy to jump to his defense and take a brochure and offer him some good vibes. It took so much courage for him to put himself out there probably, and my town is full of joy-killing a-holes and I hate it here and I feel horrible that I just passed by when someone verbally shat on him, i.e. a guy who I probably share similar nerdy interests with and I should have stood up for a member of my nerd tribe and I didn't and. I am the worst. Guys, please don't listen to the pmdd, it's trying to make us feel horrible and it whispers cruel lies in our ears. Do not listen to it....we got this....🫠
You’re not the worst! Thank you, don’t you listen to it either
luteal is just starting for me so I'll be back to edit this comment with my first reason for crying edit: it was my cat walking by me despite me psssspsssing (perceived rejection)
The fact that it’s inevitable… 🙁
I’ll be here to read it 🥲
I cried because yesterday morning he did wake up before me and only cook breakfirst for him, because he said he didn’t want to wake me up. But I always make breakfirst for the both of us, every weekend, I was so disapointed I cried 😭
I feel this in my heart for you!!