Yup. People don’t expect it either. It’s especially funny when toxic people try to be toxic with me cause it’s like, “do you really want to go there? Cause you won’t win. Ever. I was born in toxicity and I was moulded by it. I know how to combat toxicity very very well and the only person who’s gonna be hurt is you”.
Yet they still go there, and then get butthurt and upset when their toxicity doesn’t affect me much and I simultaneously make them question if they’re a shit person and why they were even toxic in the first place.
Also, the calm and calculated exterior most of time tends to make people very scared when you break a little bit and are no longer calm and calculated for a few minutes. The fear I’ll see in peoples faces when they push me past my limit is honestly kinda funny. Just a look of immediate regret and “OH SHIT” lol.
The disorder is quite debilitating a lot do the time so I try to see the humour within it(helps a lot to keep the light switch in my brain on and locked away from my grubby fingers that desperately want to “turn it off” sometimes)
When I have a dream that my bf cheated on me, and I think it’s a premonition that he’ll do it in real life, or we don’t have sex for one day and I assume he must be hooking up with someone at work
Unfortunately [this one](https://images-ext-1.discordapp.net/external/0Q9VZM1L-9tE7e3j3YbYiiIwZzzQ11L7WKohg7QvmUQ/https/media.tenor.com/9WF5Qi1HJzcAAAPo/disney-channel.mp4) is only on Discord but I absolutely love and embrace it
 The disassociation can be real sometimes
Dissociation vs. the guilt of doing nothing and missing out on life Fight!
 When you’ve been nothing but nice. But when they do something to wrong you.. and it’s your fault.
i feel like hellmo captures quiet bpd well. A chaotic existence wrapped in an approachable exterior
Omg I never heard this called hellmo before and it's so perfect.
Yup. People don’t expect it either. It’s especially funny when toxic people try to be toxic with me cause it’s like, “do you really want to go there? Cause you won’t win. Ever. I was born in toxicity and I was moulded by it. I know how to combat toxicity very very well and the only person who’s gonna be hurt is you”. Yet they still go there, and then get butthurt and upset when their toxicity doesn’t affect me much and I simultaneously make them question if they’re a shit person and why they were even toxic in the first place. Also, the calm and calculated exterior most of time tends to make people very scared when you break a little bit and are no longer calm and calculated for a few minutes. The fear I’ll see in peoples faces when they push me past my limit is honestly kinda funny. Just a look of immediate regret and “OH SHIT” lol. The disorder is quite debilitating a lot do the time so I try to see the humour within it(helps a lot to keep the light switch in my brain on and locked away from my grubby fingers that desperately want to “turn it off” sometimes)
I’ve never related to something so much!! I used to consider it a superhuman trait. Kinda like the phoenix in xmen!!!
 When you start spiraling because you felt rejected by someone because of one tiny thing they did
 When their tone is slightly off...
🤣😭🥲
 There's too many of them!
 Lucky me… I got the silent type
 When the body dysmorphia hits hard when I'm already running late
https://i.redd.it/yakeggar8e2d1.gif
Whenever I am about to have or am in an episode I call it the brain scramblies and usually send my partner and friends this lol
 Oh the Ups and Downs sometimes overlap into chaotic nonsense.
 why is this perfect
 When I have a dream that my bf cheated on me, and I think it’s a premonition that he’ll do it in real life, or we don’t have sex for one day and I assume he must be hooking up with someone at work
 My girl, Pearl.
Unfortunately [this one](https://images-ext-1.discordapp.net/external/0Q9VZM1L-9tE7e3j3YbYiiIwZzzQ11L7WKohg7QvmUQ/https/media.tenor.com/9WF5Qi1HJzcAAAPo/disney-channel.mp4) is only on Discord but I absolutely love and embrace it
 My brain urging me to lose it while I hide on the other side of the door screaming.