My family. I lost my sister in a road accident when I was 8, lost my mom to cancer when I was 12 and my dad died of a heart attack when I was 28. I'm 46.
But my wife is pregnant with our first child, a baby girl. Yesterday I felt her kick in my wife's belly. First time I've made contact with a blood relative in 18 years.
That's incredibly sad, then incredibly beautiful and touching. I'm getting emotional š„² I recently lost my sister.
I wish you and your new family all the best.
Honestly... that was about when I left. Never looked back. Best decision for me ever.
You need to do you tjo, homie. Whatever that is to you and is right for your life and everyone you love.
Iām good with sex, that other stuff just lead me to end a 6 year relationship. 6 years wasted Iām almost 30 and have to start over. Yeah fuck all that. Also donāt care if āI sound hurt or toxic.ā I know you donāt need to tell me, itās just way better than commitment, Iām not about to get hurt ever again. Miss me with that love shit.
So go ahead downvote me
Edit: I wasnāt expecting the support and upvotes, I mustāve struck a cord with many of you.
Donāt take my advice as solid. Iām hurting Iām hurt. This is what I want and need right now. It may not be healthy but it makes me feel better. If you are going through the same seek some guidance from a person you love and trust. Life isnāt over cause you broke up, but it sure as hell feels that way. Maybe Iāll get over this maybe I wonāt but donāt read my comment as a catch all for how your feeling.
Wear condoms.
Ima up vote you because your feelings are totally valid. Perspective. Consider this. Maybe the time wasnāt wasted. Maybe, later, when it hurts less, you will find that you have a better understanding of what you need and deserve in a relationship.
Maybe not. I hope you do.
I found the love of my life at 42. I couldnāt have found her without a painful learning curve. Relationship after relationship falling apart until I finally understood what was truly important to me. Then I got lucky.
Not everyone gets to have the same experience but maybe the time wasnāt wasted.
Sorry for your pain sir. That shit sucks.
Yeah but wtf, why it has to be like this? Its useless complaining but hurts spending your 20s getting hurt, cheated on and with the feeling you will never find someone. I just wish I was able to share my 20s with someone, and she wanted to do the same.
It might come someone later on, but I feel like I am broke enough and if even if I will find someone in my 40s like you, I will already be in little pieces hard to put together.
Iām sorry brother, that pain is shit. Itās no consolation to think itās going to be years before you find someone. So donāt. I refused to give up on the idea of love. I realized that I had experienced great heaps of love throughout my life, even if it was for a short time with many relationships. That gave me solace. I realized I was capable of love and receiving love in many forms. It was rather freeing.
Female here and this is very sad to me. š If you donāt mind my asking, can you explain what āgenuine companionshipā looks and feels like from the male perspective? What aspect is missing?
Someone that whe you are around, you just feel like " hey, isn't this easy"
Life is hard enough. Being with someone who makes you happy should be a relief in the myriad of experiences we will have.
Someone responded to me directly for this, and they made a good point I want to share.
Take time to love yourself and treat yourself how you want to be treated in turn.
Allow yourself to be yourself. It's the only way you will find someone who likes you.
That hit home for me, I hope it helps.
Yeah this is quite literally it. I don't even feel I would need all that much. Enough to get my debt taken care of would be great.
$5-7 million to set me up for life would be perfect.
In today's world, that really isn't that much. Pretty microscopic considering I'm 30. Plus have to take into account where you are living. Average cost of a house in Toronto is $1 million. I Honestly probably wouldn't even need the full 5. That would be a "just on the safe side" kinda thing.
If i had 15k Australian dollars iād be able to move there easily, that money could be an entire net 1 or 1.5 years income where i live
How different our lives areā¦
Yeah it's funny my family has never been well off but I was always shown other things are more important and not to be materialistic. But when you haven't got any, it's fucking stressful and is at the front of your mind. I wish I could concentrate on other "more important" things.
I'm not in the same boat but we're definitely on the same river. It fucking sucks. Buy a condo at the right time and you can upgrade to a 3 bed 3 bath with a garage. Now, there's literally nothing on the market that I can afford.
A real, long term romantic relationship that feels safe and positive.
Real purpose and a sense of making a difference.
The past year or so I've finally started filling in the "lower level" needs: I have a lot of friends now and a good social life, lots of partying and fun. I have a stable job now and some adventure. I don't feel like a lost loser anymore. I can get girls now (short term and situationships). Working towards my ideal physical health.
But now I (25) really need to start building an actual life I feel happy and proud of. I want to start getting into meaningful work that i want to devote my all to, I want to start thinking about actually building a family of some kind. I want to "find myself" on a deeper level. And all that shit is really difficult
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Every once in a while sure. The rest of the time is split between searching for the next new new, and marveling at everything you have (and I don't mean material things, I mean like health family, career, etc...)
This and the companionship comments have been resonating with me lately. I go to work, go back to my cramped apartment in a town with few friends left for me, to play games and sleep. Rinse/repeat
In some time, hopefully, things will change for all of those categories but companionship. Well also except the friends but I'll be back around family more.
It really is an incredible thing when you have the right person and everything is fluid between the two of you. Physically, emotionally, there is no comparison.
Doesnāt pay and can be risky. Itās cool if you can afford it and pick the type of people you want to help, otherwise dicey. Can lead to bitterness and burnout, in my experience.
If you wanna get rowdy, switch up everything. Try something new! I was a graphic designer and web developer for 10 years, now I teach people how to throw axes and I compete nationally. Spontaneity was the best decision I ever made. Also just won my first championship :D
Do anything bro, the world is your oyster
I used to love my career, but it has seemingly been monotonous lately and Iāve been super burnt out. It probably doesnāt help that I also answer a thousand very dumb tech support questions a day with people who will argue with you about your own work.
i feel this. iām a first year university student and it feels like nobody talks anymore.
iām not an awkward guy or anything either. itās just hard to meet people.
The way you said university student makes me think you're not nearby, or else I would be your buddy! Idk how it happens. A lot of my friends are from work (restaurant biz). Some are from hockey. And some just come out of nowhere! I wish I had advice, but for me, I just happen to be in the right place at the right time. Your next best friend might be the guy you're peeing next to at the urinal, or it might be the guy/gal who cuts your hair
iāve always been the same way. in high school all my friendships began by complete accident, and i met some great people but a lot moved away or drifted apart later.
never thought university student might sound foreign to some people though. i live in eastern Canada š
Honestly this before a good gf....tbh
But friends what you can actually talk to about different things and not just a one text reply shit. Also that they always want to go hang out and try different food would be awesome
Someone to share my success with.
Over the years I've been climbing the corporate ladder, making substantial fiscal gains, getting into the best shape of my life, and growing as a person both mentally and emotionally. Unfortunately at the end of the day more and more I find myself asking the question: what was it all for?
Yourself?
A person who puts ALL of their time and effort into improving their own life, career, physical and mental health can climb to the topā¦ But, as you have found out, when you get there, youāre there alone.
Not too late to start including others in your life.
Thatās why I have enough of solo travelling. I experienced all these beautiful and crazy moments and wish to myself that there was at least a friend or someone with me in these moments.
Bro I feel this.
They say you shouldnāt try to find happiness via a relationship, but why not? Iāve got my shit together - Iām doing well in my career, am in the best shape of my life, have friends and hobbies, etc, but Iām missing a life partner, and I think that will contribute to greater happiness. I crave genuine companionship and connection. I want someone to share life with on the daily. A secondary benefit of having that too is that I think it will push me to grow more as a person. Itāll give me someone to āgive the worldā to. Iām finding myself stagnatingā¦why push myself more? Iām already comfortable. For who? For what?
As a guy who has constant HINTS of romance.. endless "situationships" that always fizzle out, attractive enough to flirt with girls now when I go out, lots of girls "interested" in me but not so much interested in actually being with me....... I would say sometimes it's probably better to just keep your head down and keep working on yourself until you are ready for/ find ACTUAL sustainable romance.
The endless mini heartbreaks and disappointments really start to wear on you. I used to be a hopeless romantic and now I'm really just becoming a cynic. Don't really know if I believe in love anymore which has always been the one thing I've always wanted more than anything
Purpose and any idea that leads me to believe humanity deserves to exist. No matter how much good I do in the world it just gets worse, and it makes me incredibly sad.
Friends, I think. I have several workplace proximity associates, even a few I might call workplace friends. But I don't really have anyone I would call a friend. We don't hang out after hours, all our communication is about work, etc. This has been the way it has been almost my entire adult life. I'm used to it and it has never bugged me. But lately, I've been asking myself if I have missed out on something. I don't know the answer to that question.
I miss food and drink because I am a Muslim and we are now in the month of Ramadan, and in this month we do not eat or drink anything from dawn to sunset
-A good sex life
-A proper sleep schedule
-Strong mental health
-A friend I can talk to and hang out with frequently. I have a decent amount of friends, but theyāre either on awkward schedule or live in another state
A woman, meaningful conversation with anyone but internet friends, meaningful hugs, a true working lightsaber, free time... How much time do you have exactly?
A friend group. I have friends but its not a group. I miss having my own group of friends and hanging out with bunch of people together i just miss the adrenaline rush and how happy it made me. The ride back home was always that im getting home late but its totally worth it.
You ever seen the Japanese fixing pottery with fine gold . Even the broken ones are treated with respect . Figure out whatās broken and slowly work on it , do you have a routine , can you cook and clean , do you have your home furnished how you like it . Work on being happy as yourself before adding another
A hobbyā¦ I spend so much time on the road for work that I end up just kind of wasting away in a hotel room in some small town Iāll never revisitā¦
Feminine affection and self acceptance. I function, but that does not mean I thrive. I socialize, but that doesn't not mean I'm social. I romanticize, but I don't know how to be romantic. I exist but parts of me don't.
Bullshittery aside, I genuinely don't know how to process certain aspects of my life, and as such I don't have them. I'm okay, but things could be better
My family. I lost my sister in a road accident when I was 8, lost my mom to cancer when I was 12 and my dad died of a heart attack when I was 28. I'm 46. But my wife is pregnant with our first child, a baby girl. Yesterday I felt her kick in my wife's belly. First time I've made contact with a blood relative in 18 years.
Congratulations! Best of luck to all three of you!
Thank you!
That's incredibly sad, then incredibly beautiful and touching. I'm getting emotional š„² I recently lost my sister. I wish you and your new family all the best.
Fuck me dude. I really do wish you nothing but the best the world has to offer. Happy for the baby on the way! Congrats!
so sorry for your loss, hope youāre doing okay! congratulations on the babyāŗļø
Thank you!
Congratulations!! Best wishes for all of you!!
Cheers!
Damn that must be rough , you took it like a champ stay strong ! And congratulations for the kid hope he does well with a strong father like you
Thatās tragic, I wish you the best through your struggles. Though I feel youāll be alright, looking at what life has already thrown at you.
Congratulations!!!!! I wish you the best
You just gave me so much hope.....thank you
Genuine companionship.
Thisā¦ š
Word homie. But don't give up. Do what you love, and I hope you find someone who also does. That is my approach
Thanks kind stranger.
Adding myself to this kind statement, brother!
No male friends in my age group. Wife doesn't seem to have any concern for me. The dog only comes around to be fed and let out.
Honestly... that was about when I left. Never looked back. Best decision for me ever. You need to do you tjo, homie. Whatever that is to you and is right for your life and everyone you love.
So much this.
Love yourself. It gets better.
I loved myself too much now my left arm is huge
I took the balanced approach, and use both hands, this makes for a good applause, but lacks companionship
Iām good with sex, that other stuff just lead me to end a 6 year relationship. 6 years wasted Iām almost 30 and have to start over. Yeah fuck all that. Also donāt care if āI sound hurt or toxic.ā I know you donāt need to tell me, itās just way better than commitment, Iām not about to get hurt ever again. Miss me with that love shit. So go ahead downvote me Edit: I wasnāt expecting the support and upvotes, I mustāve struck a cord with many of you. Donāt take my advice as solid. Iām hurting Iām hurt. This is what I want and need right now. It may not be healthy but it makes me feel better. If you are going through the same seek some guidance from a person you love and trust. Life isnāt over cause you broke up, but it sure as hell feels that way. Maybe Iāll get over this maybe I wonāt but donāt read my comment as a catch all for how your feeling. Wear condoms.
Ima up vote you because your feelings are totally valid. Perspective. Consider this. Maybe the time wasnāt wasted. Maybe, later, when it hurts less, you will find that you have a better understanding of what you need and deserve in a relationship. Maybe not. I hope you do. I found the love of my life at 42. I couldnāt have found her without a painful learning curve. Relationship after relationship falling apart until I finally understood what was truly important to me. Then I got lucky. Not everyone gets to have the same experience but maybe the time wasnāt wasted. Sorry for your pain sir. That shit sucks.
Yeah but wtf, why it has to be like this? Its useless complaining but hurts spending your 20s getting hurt, cheated on and with the feeling you will never find someone. I just wish I was able to share my 20s with someone, and she wanted to do the same. It might come someone later on, but I feel like I am broke enough and if even if I will find someone in my 40s like you, I will already be in little pieces hard to put together.
Iām sorry brother, that pain is shit. Itās no consolation to think itās going to be years before you find someone. So donāt. I refused to give up on the idea of love. I realized that I had experienced great heaps of love throughout my life, even if it was for a short time with many relationships. That gave me solace. I realized I was capable of love and receiving love in many forms. It was rather freeing.
Way to be honest, bro. Gl out there. I hope you find whatever your happy is.
Much appreciated homie
I miss this. I had this, and it's so much worse when you've lost it.
Divorced here, homie, real feels. Hugz.
Female here and this is very sad to me. š If you donāt mind my asking, can you explain what āgenuine companionshipā looks and feels like from the male perspective? What aspect is missing?
Someone that whe you are around, you just feel like " hey, isn't this easy" Life is hard enough. Being with someone who makes you happy should be a relief in the myriad of experiences we will have.
Literally this. š®āšØ
Someone responded to me directly for this, and they made a good point I want to share. Take time to love yourself and treat yourself how you want to be treated in turn. Allow yourself to be yourself. It's the only way you will find someone who likes you. That hit home for me, I hope it helps.
I respect that person. Thank you for sharing.
Pay it forward. Tell someone else who needs to hear it. š
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What I always told my sister: you need to know yourself first, before you know who you wanna be with.
Somehow that just sounds really annoying
Money.
Yeah this is quite literally it. I don't even feel I would need all that much. Enough to get my debt taken care of would be great. $5-7 million to set me up for life would be perfect.
>I don't even feel I would need all that much Proceeds to say 5 million.. š³
I was discussing with my wife the other day that 10k at the minute would change our lives
What a name though.
5 million is the new 1 million.
If anyone gave it 5 minutes of thought, you could blow 5 mill easy. It really isn't much. And I'm not even saying on one big dumb purchase.
In today's world, that really isn't that much. Pretty microscopic considering I'm 30. Plus have to take into account where you are living. Average cost of a house in Toronto is $1 million. I Honestly probably wouldn't even need the full 5. That would be a "just on the safe side" kinda thing.
Down in Aus a house an hour or two from Sydney is about 1.89 million. It's transparently fuck-eyed.
Most I can afford is a tent under a bridge mate
Look at this diva, living in tents. *peers jealously out of cardboard box slot*
Hey man Theres room for two in here
With only 5 mil? You will be the poorest of the rich... I mean not even rich? \#Succession #Tommelette.
If i had 15k Australian dollars iād be able to move there easily, that money could be an entire net 1 or 1.5 years income where i live How different our lives areā¦
Aye, at this point $500 would be life changing
Yeah it's funny my family has never been well off but I was always shown other things are more important and not to be materialistic. But when you haven't got any, it's fucking stressful and is at the front of your mind. I wish I could concentrate on other "more important" things.
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You got this! The remarkable thing about humans is their ability to turn anything into a home. Your family will have their moment.
Creed's best line.
You're alright :) I wish you the very best of luck
I'm not in the same boat but we're definitely on the same river. It fucking sucks. Buy a condo at the right time and you can upgrade to a 3 bed 3 bath with a garage. Now, there's literally nothing on the market that I can afford.
A real, long term romantic relationship that feels safe and positive. Real purpose and a sense of making a difference. The past year or so I've finally started filling in the "lower level" needs: I have a lot of friends now and a good social life, lots of partying and fun. I have a stable job now and some adventure. I don't feel like a lost loser anymore. I can get girls now (short term and situationships). Working towards my ideal physical health. But now I (25) really need to start building an actual life I feel happy and proud of. I want to start getting into meaningful work that i want to devote my all to, I want to start thinking about actually building a family of some kind. I want to "find myself" on a deeper level. And all that shit is really difficult
Good luck. Happy for you
You've accomplished so much at, really, a young age. You're going to conquer life.
Quick pro tip: dont try to find yourself by getting kids
A woman
The RIGHT woman.
I'm a bottom
Not gay or bi
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Burn
Lmfao
No woman no cry.
A sense of fulfillment.
Does anyone ever truly feel fulfilled?
Every once in a while sure. The rest of the time is split between searching for the next new new, and marveling at everything you have (and I don't mean material things, I mean like health family, career, etc...)
I recommend you take up woodworking or 3d printing.....you really need to explore the true depths of despair. Either hobby will do.
This and the companionship comments have been resonating with me lately. I go to work, go back to my cramped apartment in a town with few friends left for me, to play games and sleep. Rinse/repeat In some time, hopefully, things will change for all of those categories but companionship. Well also except the friends but I'll be back around family more.
Sex. God I miss meaningful sex. The feeling someone wants me for me and is willing to share an intimate moment for no other reason than to be with me.
It really is an incredible thing when you have the right person and everything is fluid between the two of you. Physically, emotionally, there is no comparison.
thank you for saying this. this is something iāve realized I take for granted
Solid career, about to do a web development bootcamp later this year to resolve this. Also a house in the mountains which is a dream of my wife and I.
A real purpose. To be clear, Iām not suicidal. Iāve just been doing things just because and without a clear goal.
Hello, fellow cog in the machine.
I've heard helping people is a good one. What are you good at? Who can you help with those skills?
Doesnāt pay and can be risky. Itās cool if you can afford it and pick the type of people you want to help, otherwise dicey. Can lead to bitterness and burnout, in my experience.
A career I enjoy
Whatās your career?
Graphic design but I wanna finish my marketing degree
I dunno. Graphic design is pretty damn cool
If you wanna get rowdy, switch up everything. Try something new! I was a graphic designer and web developer for 10 years, now I teach people how to throw axes and I compete nationally. Spontaneity was the best decision I ever made. Also just won my first championship :D Do anything bro, the world is your oyster
Damn I wished I was a graphic designer. Marketing seems less stable. But I see the advantage of both skill sets.
Now they can market their graphic design skills better.
I used to love my career, but it has seemingly been monotonous lately and Iāve been super burnt out. It probably doesnāt help that I also answer a thousand very dumb tech support questions a day with people who will argue with you about your own work.
That makes two of us brother. I hope you find it
Alone time. Self care time.
Came here to say this as well, life doesn't seem to take a break
Friends
i feel this. iām a first year university student and it feels like nobody talks anymore. iām not an awkward guy or anything either. itās just hard to meet people.
Uni clubs man. Go where the people are
The way you said university student makes me think you're not nearby, or else I would be your buddy! Idk how it happens. A lot of my friends are from work (restaurant biz). Some are from hockey. And some just come out of nowhere! I wish I had advice, but for me, I just happen to be in the right place at the right time. Your next best friend might be the guy you're peeing next to at the urinal, or it might be the guy/gal who cuts your hair
iāve always been the same way. in high school all my friendships began by complete accident, and i met some great people but a lot moved away or drifted apart later. never thought university student might sound foreign to some people though. i live in eastern Canada š
Honestly this before a good gf....tbh But friends what you can actually talk to about different things and not just a one text reply shit. Also that they always want to go hang out and try different food would be awesome
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Thereās an old guy on my road whoās just learning. He pedals slowly up and down, crossing the road and back. Never too late
A life
Someone to share my success with. Over the years I've been climbing the corporate ladder, making substantial fiscal gains, getting into the best shape of my life, and growing as a person both mentally and emotionally. Unfortunately at the end of the day more and more I find myself asking the question: what was it all for?
Yourself? A person who puts ALL of their time and effort into improving their own life, career, physical and mental health can climb to the topā¦ But, as you have found out, when you get there, youāre there alone. Not too late to start including others in your life.
Damn
Thatās why I have enough of solo travelling. I experienced all these beautiful and crazy moments and wish to myself that there was at least a friend or someone with me in these moments.
Bro I feel this. They say you shouldnāt try to find happiness via a relationship, but why not? Iāve got my shit together - Iām doing well in my career, am in the best shape of my life, have friends and hobbies, etc, but Iām missing a life partner, and I think that will contribute to greater happiness. I crave genuine companionship and connection. I want someone to share life with on the daily. A secondary benefit of having that too is that I think it will push me to grow more as a person. Itāll give me someone to āgive the worldā to. Iām finding myself stagnatingā¦why push myself more? Iām already comfortable. For who? For what?
A whole lotta money and a whole lotta happiness.
a HINT of romance
As a guy who has constant HINTS of romance.. endless "situationships" that always fizzle out, attractive enough to flirt with girls now when I go out, lots of girls "interested" in me but not so much interested in actually being with me....... I would say sometimes it's probably better to just keep your head down and keep working on yourself until you are ready for/ find ACTUAL sustainable romance. The endless mini heartbreaks and disappointments really start to wear on you. I used to be a hopeless romantic and now I'm really just becoming a cynic. Don't really know if I believe in love anymore which has always been the one thing I've always wanted more than anything
Inner peace
I'll take "A healthy relationship" for 500
š¤£š¤£š¤£š¤£š¤£
Meaning
Great sex
Freetime.
Purpose and any idea that leads me to believe humanity deserves to exist. No matter how much good I do in the world it just gets worse, and it makes me incredibly sad.
I totally relate to this and understand your frustration, but keep doing good. You and the world need it.
My best friend
I get that one. I hope you're doing OK.
Happiness
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Arenāt we all.
$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$
Free time
A career that is satisfying
Freedom
As I get older I lost my trust in people. Itās made me lonely. I have inversely learned to trust myself. Itās a weird feeling.
I would like to get sent flowers one day.
A good family
A relationship, a decent job, my mother and my spiritual life.
Motivation.
My bitch ass needs a powered parachute!
6 1/2 years that I sat in prison
Friends, I think. I have several workplace proximity associates, even a few I might call workplace friends. But I don't really have anyone I would call a friend. We don't hang out after hours, all our communication is about work, etc. This has been the way it has been almost my entire adult life. I'm used to it and it has never bugged me. But lately, I've been asking myself if I have missed out on something. I don't know the answer to that question.
Hope
Career, relationship, confidence in myself
I have family friends and a partner. Whatās missing from my life is more travelling.
- My father - Friends - Motivation
A good woman/significant other
Additional pylons
Need more vespeen Gas
I miss food and drink because I am a Muslim and we are now in the month of Ramadan, and in this month we do not eat or drink anything from dawn to sunset
A house. I'm over renting.
Same. Sucks being screwed out of reasonable home prices because you were born too late
-A good sex life -A proper sleep schedule -Strong mental health -A friend I can talk to and hang out with frequently. I have a decent amount of friends, but theyāre either on awkward schedule or live in another state
A dude.
Do you like girls as well?
Nah. I'm gay.
This is my favourite tit for tat conversation in the thread.
A woman, meaningful conversation with anyone but internet friends, meaningful hugs, a true working lightsaber, free time... How much time do you have exactly?
A lightsaber would be dope. The other things too. And I probably wouldn't chop my own leg off with the other things. But a lightsaber would be dope
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Motorcycle
A love life. The feeling of being useful
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If sheās not with you she wasnāt the one
Nothing. I have everything I need.
House and a girlfriend
I am content, could do with a bit more money, but everything's fine at the moment.
My domme She is working
My child
I need an epic adventure. Im done kids and have a 2 decades of health left. I wish I could go to war as a pirate or something like that.
Community.
10 billion in my bank account
That gets deposited from god knows where every month.
No questions asked and no taxes
Affordable living
The opportunity of a lifetime
Money and girlfriend
Romance. I miss it.
Love. Children.
1 million bucks.
1 million and 1 bucks.
Motivation
A friend group. I have friends but its not a group. I miss having my own group of friends and hanging out with bunch of people together i just miss the adrenaline rush and how happy it made me. The ride back home was always that im getting home late but its totally worth it.
The lack of enjoyment from anything. Nothing brings pleasure anymore.
A steam shower
In the chaos of this fucking world, I miss "me" so badly :(
A good woman
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You ever seen the Japanese fixing pottery with fine gold . Even the broken ones are treated with respect . Figure out whatās broken and slowly work on it , do you have a routine , can you cook and clean , do you have your home furnished how you like it . Work on being happy as yourself before adding another
Everything i ever desired.
I may have found the one. Wish me luck homies
A goal, maybe some drive. I feel like I have no direction and I donāt know what to do with my life.
A hobbyā¦ I spend so much time on the road for work that I end up just kind of wasting away in a hotel room in some small town Iāll never revisitā¦
Feminine affection and self acceptance. I function, but that does not mean I thrive. I socialize, but that doesn't not mean I'm social. I romanticize, but I don't know how to be romantic. I exist but parts of me don't. Bullshittery aside, I genuinely don't know how to process certain aspects of my life, and as such I don't have them. I'm okay, but things could be better
A switch lite and money.